i can't let go of the past.

Haven't updated in a while. Not much going on. I got 3 jobs and I'm always working. So that's pretty much ruined my already dormant social life.

My van is almost paid off, which will basically ensure that I am financially ballin once again. I don't plan on being in debt for anything much longer.

Booking a 21 day north american tour with withdrawal. Its gonna be awesome to see my friends in california once again and see the guys in creatures. Hardcore is awesome.

Been working on songs for an LP. We have about 6 of them written. With some fleshing out they will be awesome.

I'm bored of blabbing in here, suck it.

Spent the last week or so on a steady diet of late 90's to early 2000's hardcore / emo. Made me feel 19 again.

Listening to Giant's chair, further seems forever, Jimmy Eat world made me feel pretty heartwrenched for better times and better days.

Listening to deadyguy, converge, buried alive, 100 demons and shai hulud just made me want to burn everything I see and walk away.

Not much to report in the personal life. Got another 2nd job, doing tech support for netflix. Probably not gonna be the funnest job but whatever. Money is money and making 1500 every two weeks is gonna be no joke. Nothing really on the horizon in terms of ladyfriends or whatever, but I don't really mind.

This year has been awful and I don't know what I'm doing with myself anymore. I'm not me.

All I want to do is watch one person suffer and experience complete agony. I don't care about anything else right now, and watching this one person feel pain is the only thing that can set me free.

In just over 10 days I turn 27. Nothing really to show for it other than some stories and some scars.

Got laid off at stats canada. Just when I was getting ahead in life with working two jobs I loose my footing. Annoying. The old me would completely give up, but I won't allow myself to be weak and stagnant anymore.

Can we talk about "normal" people for a second? Its weird hanging out with them, or interacting with them. What a different lifestyle I lead, being what could be described as a "hardcore" kid.

It sucks though because I don't really feel any connection to "hardcore kids" anyways.

Anyways, I don't want to ramble about hardcore right now.

Probably going to make some dumb decisions soon.

Depressing is eating your lunch in your van on your way from one job to the other. Life.