All I want to do is watch one person suffer and experience complete agony. I don't care about anything else right now, and watching this one person feel pain is the only thing that can set me free.

In just over 10 days I turn 27. Nothing really to show for it other than some stories and some scars.

Got laid off at stats canada. Just when I was getting ahead in life with working two jobs I loose my footing. Annoying. The old me would completely give up, but I won't allow myself to be weak and stagnant anymore.

Can we talk about "normal" people for a second? Its weird hanging out with them, or interacting with them. What a different lifestyle I lead, being what could be described as a "hardcore" kid.

It sucks though because I don't really feel any connection to "hardcore kids" anyways.

Anyways, I don't want to ramble about hardcore right now.

Probably going to make some dumb decisions soon.