Still not used to sleeping alone. Fuck.

Can't wait to get out of here for a week. Never been to florida, I'm pretty excited as the weather has quickly become abysmal again. Excited to spend it with an amazing chick. Feels weird even saying that, but its true.

I've had a good couple of days, in fact I've been smiling ear to ear for a lot of them.

Losing more weight. I can fit some of my old medium shirts. So sick.

We apparently can't say no to touring, and its with a really sick band I can't wait to announce it and the new record.

Waiting on the master for the new record. I like the songs we did but it's a chapter closing on my life to an extent. I can't spend my time trying to be sad anymore. All our new songs after this 7" will be seething with anger and bile. No more "woe is me, woe is us".

Can't stop watching the league.

Working 9-5 has turned me into a pussy who gets tired around 10pm. Fuck.

Been listening to so much vegan straight edge hardcore. Maybe a sign?

yup, that's the worst month i've ever had.

50/50 chance i kill myself this week, 50/50 chance i'm serious about that statement.

"cuz i'm fine, i can fuck baby, and i can fight.

thanks for nothing bitch, my formula is extraordinarily tight."

i need to be a strong person.

had a good, long talk yesterday. it wasn't exactly like, too productive but these kinda things do seem like they go easier as time goes on. cleared the air about some things. i don't think it got too heavy at points.

end of the day, there will be alot of smiths and depeche mode being listened to this valentines thats for sure.

listening to suga free.

had a pretty good time lately. just been keeping busy, working out, hanging with friends.

moshed hard last night for a cro-mags cover band, it was fun and it had been a while. i think i managed to bruise my belly button during their set ha ha. what a weird mosh related injury.

financially, after a year of uncertainty i'm caught up on bills. gonna buy some new clothes soon. pumped on that. maybe some new shoes. almost done paying off my van, which is AWESOME. that's an extra 300 bucks a month i can put towards new shit, maybe even moving into a new place? that depends on school though. also almost done paying off my best buy card, that's an extra 100 i can put towards whatever.

had a bunch of shit to say... won't bother saying it. it just sucks when someone you care about changes for the worse and embarrasses themselves. i guess i thought she was different, but she proved me wrong.

man, i am frigging tired today. got no sleep at all last night, 1 and a half hours to be exact.

all i want to do is work, work, work.

what's going on this weekend? hopefully something super silly.

valentines is coming up, fuckin' bogus. looks like i'm saving some $$$$$$ this year so hey i guess that's a bright side.