Depressing is eating your lunch in your van on your way from one job to the other. Life.

So as quickly as I was excited to go to europe, poof, it's taken away! Its not really that big of a bummer. Basically the booking agent threw us off to make sure he makes more money in the end. Fucking lame.

But the fest I was looking forward to got cancelled and we weren't playing any of the days I wanted to play at any of the other fests so I'm not gonna lose any sleep over it.

With the extra money I'm saving by not going I'm gonna be in a pretty good financial spot for now. Trying to figure out the best course of action with that. Maybe take a vacation? Pay off my van? Go on a california tour? Who knows.

been a while.

working two jobs. 14 hours a day. from now until basically when i feel like stopping.

no real news on the girl front. i think i am finally over the post-breakup dumb behavior that started in january and made for an interesting february, an embarassing march, a standard april, a pretty well-done may and a deathknell in june. just not really feelin' doin' it, definitely not feeling dating. just gonna be myself and try and enjoy the finer more intelligent aspect in life, instead of chasing pussy down the mountain, so to speak.

i leave for europe for 3 weeks in a couple of weeks. i am mostly excited to see the art, and architechture and culture and all that. maybe the uk is the spiritual home i've always thought it was? either way, it should be very interesting, but i am worried about feeling alone and miserable like i did on our last tour... paying 1400 dollars to go across the globe and be miserable. christ.