I don't understand my life anymore and I don't know why I do the things I do and why I feel the way I feel all the time.

I can't believe how many friends I've lost, or never really had in the first place.

I don't understand how people act like they act.

I am very obviously depressed, but even then, I don't see this as some sort of "oh he just feels bad for no reason all the time" thing. Its just everything is bad all the time.

I can't stop thinking about just giving up, maybe killing myself. Ill be driving and my mind will wander and ill think about just cranking the wheel left and ending it all.

Who knows how ill feel tomorrow.